Zavier W

Among all the emotions I feel, guilt is the most of all.

You were an unwelcomed surprise, something that didn't seemed real to me then, as if it's there but not really there.

Then you were gone, before I knew it.

I felt the pain, the worst tremendous pain ever. But I didn't knew then that I lost you.

Even though you were unwanted, you chose to leave me on your own accord. I didn't thought much of it then as I was still so young. Yet as years goes by, the emotions and pain never faded. I do think of you still, you ain't forgotten, never will be.

Now 7 years later, then I realized the truth - you were never gone. It came as a surprise again, and I feel so sad for you.. lingering around like this. Because of our mistake, you suffered for it.

I don't know what else I can do, except pray for you, hoping that you've finally found a place where you belong, and at peace... Zifeng.

There was a tiny heart beating in you by then, you were a little life. Perhaps things happened for a reason, and nothing can undo the past. Maybe I will feel all this guilt and sadness all the way till my last breath, and even if it is near, it's okay coz I may just see you again.

"And there are voices
that want to be heard.
So much to mention
but you can't find the words.
The scent of magic,
the beauty that's been
when love was wilder than the wind.

Listen to your heart
when he's calling for you.
Listen to your heart
there's nothing else you can do.
I don't know where you're going
and I don't know why,
but listen to your heart
before you tell him goodbye."